Down and Dirty ADHD Blues
I’m told that peaceful music is good
I love good, hard-driving rock and roll
It gives me energy
It makes me alive
It makes me think
Bills must be paid
I know — but don’t care right now
And the paperwork will get done
Eventually
I can only deal with disasters
Plan for a good life
Set goals
Keep a schedule
A clean environment = a clean mind
Blah-blah-blah-blah-blah…
Work-work-work-work-work
Buy-buy-buy-buy-buy
Or you will die
Sorry, but this idea is important
And I never wanted an expensive coffin
I’m not after your rewards
I don’t fear your penalties
I live for the experience
I live for the people
And the feelings
I’m a junkie
for dopamine
for adrenaline
for norepinephrine
I’m lucky I didn’t go with worse
though caffeine and nicotine have helped
I found out early
that my mind could go to
nasty and
beautiful places
without help
Too much of a control freak
to spend time on street shit.
I have lived with stress and distress
all of my life-an unhealthy triad
Trauma and drama are where we live
not much room for anyone else for long
I’ve put some miles on this bumpy road
and I don’t look for the high spots
to hit anymore
Maybe things will smooth
in the future
for now, there is still the adventure.
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ADHD is a bitch and a superpower. And I have no idea how Neuro-Typical people don’t die of boredom.
Dana Sanford — 1/9/19
