It’s good to read this today. And to know that others go through this stuff.
I was diagnosed a few months ago (I’m 69 y/o). It was a revelation at first and explained my turbulent life and various comorbid conditions.
The “dopamine rush” and the resultant crash had become just a part of my “crazy” until I was in my ’50s and wrapped myself around the metaphorical pole with panic attacks w/ agoraphobia (a really BIG crash). Fighting through that into “just” anxiety and depression, and then low-grade anxiety had elements of the highs, but the ADHD diagnosis finally put everything in perspective. Now I’m on methylphenidate (3 pills/day) which helps, especially if I remember to take them on time.
Now I’m working to develop new coping skills. I know I’m still new to this and have a lifetime of habits to change and old (sometimes overwhelming) situations to try to rectify.
For now, writing on Medium and occasionally giving a talk are my highs.